once again

Cuanto tiempo!

I have not forgotten I have this little space; I have just been more than busy, and perhaps being a little lazy at times. But, within this days, months, I've been able to appreciate new things, learn about others as well as find those passions that fill my soul and make my days better days where i can smile and think that things would be better.

What can i say; I have this amazing partner that really does everything he can to make my day a happy one. Is not that am duper crazy in love, even tho I am, is just that is this has been perfect. his words, our moments together....his details with me and more important all he is teaching me about life and about how to smile and make jokes about the most scary and sad things that might happen in the road.

and well, I am in love...Finally, besides CSI, I found something else that complete my space and make me dream about how I would like to have friendship in my life. SEX and the CITY. wow! I dont get tired of watching it lol....is fun for me; it is my little company when i just want to chill.
and of course, I got spoiled by my LOVER...he got me the whole series and the movie, what else can i ask for?

What else? As always, busy with school...having new friends....enjoying life as much as I can and praying for the day that College days get to its final point.

is a promise

I guess i left behind something that for years helped me to close my eyes, breath and realice that life was so good because i am part of it. I stopped closing my eyes to let my soul realize that sometimes I need to feel bad in order to clean that space that could be filled in with smiles and happiness….I stopped writing for so long, for more than a year; don’t know why or how, but for some reason I blamed my schedule and I didn’t get those five minutes that forever made me a better person.

While I haven’t written at all for months, my life has being great overall. Some downs moments, but I guess we always need those in order to become stronger personas. Happy because I have achieved things that I wanted to achieved, a Model UN club, better grades, keep my self busy in a nice and recognize college, a boyfriend who makes my days better days with his smile. However, even though I should be adapted to this country by now, I am not completely adapted. I mean, I like places around here, although Rochester is kind of boring at times, but I try to enjoy it as much as I can, I like food (Chris’s Stake lol)….i like being with my family…but I miss so much being with my friends…being awaking up by my friends to go shopping or just to hang out in my galeria. I miss going to beach, walking around or just sitting at someone’s house eating and talking about how hot it is or about the stupid electricity that never works…don’t know, for some reason I have not find the same type of people. Sometimes I ask my self if maybe is me that is putting a wall every time I meet new people. Maybe is me that has something wrong or just don’t want to accept new fellows as friends. Whatever is, I hope it ends soon lol. But I can deny, my friends even with the distance still love me, and they are still there every time I want to say something funny to them, or just cry behind my laptop and tell them how much I miss them and how crazy my world is going…because it gets crazzzy sometimes.

Then, on those crazy momentitos I close my eyes and smile…I smile because of you, yes you.!!! But I would let that for another post .....yes i would keep my writings updated from now on.

rotita

Hace tiempo que no me siento. hace tiempo que no tomo tiempo ni para escribir lo que siento, porque lo que siento me da tanto miedo. Me siento vacia, dando tanto, creyendo sin creer, viendo como sin querer lo que tanto quiero se me puede salir de las manos como si fuera arena entre mis dedos. Pensando que todo es estable que todo esta bien, pero la realidad es que cuando tan solo en un momento, eso tan dulce se rompe, ya lo estable, lo bonito deja de existir. y no vuelve a existir, solo queda en el pasado, solo son dias que solo quedan en mi mente, en mi ser. se me empapan los ojos, se me enfria el alma hasta con el mas tibio cafe, se me rompen los suenos y la sonrisa se esfuma con cada pieza rota.

soy la unica que siente que el amor esta, y que es para mi. pero es solo el reflejo de lo que quiero ver.