is a promise

I guess i left behind something that for years helped me to close my eyes, breath and realice that life was so good because i am part of it. I stopped closing my eyes to let my soul realize that sometimes I need to feel bad in order to clean that space that could be filled in with smiles and happiness….I stopped writing for so long, for more than a year; don’t know why or how, but for some reason I blamed my schedule and I didn’t get those five minutes that forever made me a better person.

While I haven’t written at all for months, my life has being great overall. Some downs moments, but I guess we always need those in order to become stronger personas. Happy because I have achieved things that I wanted to achieved, a Model UN club, better grades, keep my self busy in a nice and recognize college, a boyfriend who makes my days better days with his smile. However, even though I should be adapted to this country by now, I am not completely adapted. I mean, I like places around here, although Rochester is kind of boring at times, but I try to enjoy it as much as I can, I like food (Chris’s Stake lol)….i like being with my family…but I miss so much being with my friends…being awaking up by my friends to go shopping or just to hang out in my galeria. I miss going to beach, walking around or just sitting at someone’s house eating and talking about how hot it is or about the stupid electricity that never works…don’t know, for some reason I have not find the same type of people. Sometimes I ask my self if maybe is me that is putting a wall every time I meet new people. Maybe is me that has something wrong or just don’t want to accept new fellows as friends. Whatever is, I hope it ends soon lol. But I can deny, my friends even with the distance still love me, and they are still there every time I want to say something funny to them, or just cry behind my laptop and tell them how much I miss them and how crazy my world is going…because it gets crazzzy sometimes.

Then, on those crazy momentitos I close my eyes and smile…I smile because of you, yes you.!!! But I would let that for another post .....yes i would keep my writings updated from now on.